Hi all-
How amazing this is to see everyone's pictures. What a beautiful day.

Three years ago I made Lindsay a couple mix cds for her 23rd birthday. Suffice it to say, I listened to them much more than I think she ever did. However, I could think of nothing better to do with the last two days than to ponder music, and ponder Lindsay, and make something to share with everyone. Kudos to my tech guru, Davis, who is also my bartender at the moment. We're watching ferries and the sun is finally coming out.

Music is really tough. It's nothing if it doesn't break your heart. I went to a concert this year and cried through the entire set. I'm sure some of you know how long it can take to be able to listen to music again without combusting. There's nothing profound about this mixtape, only the intention to be happy, or sad, or feel whatever other stuff you like to feel.

So grab someone you love and dance. DEFINITELY dance!

Lindsay, we miss you and love you. You're always dancing in my head.

P.s. if you were on a certain email chain with Lindsay in the late summer of 2008, you might recognize one of these :)

Here are links to both playlists. You can download the zip files and to then enjoy all the music files + playlist file for iTunes!

Playlist 1:

https://www.dropbox.com/s/grkqygwr0bfj45g/LAR.zip

*apparently "Last thing on your mind" requires permission. Here's a different file for just that song:

https://www.dropbox.com/s/hm1gghp4knxivv9/LIGHTS%20%27The%20Last%20Thing%20on%20Your%20Mind%27%20Lyrics.mp3

Playslist 2:

https://www.dropbox.com/s/m9z0b6fh8bkptj6/LAR-2.zip

Happy Birthday, Linds!

Emily made you a fantastic photo tribute for your special day. I missed the deadline. Neither of these things would surprise you. Here are a few shots of two of my favorite memories with you - Disney World and Ryan's 21st in NY. I especially like the one of you with Mickey because it reminds me of how adorably freaked out you were by all the characters. Miss your beautiful face, as always. xoxo

Linds- you ruled then, you rule now. This is precisely how i remember you every day- happy, confident and just...awesome. Happy beautiful day, Linds. We miss you too much around here.
Nice birks by the way...may try and bring those back in style.
Love you.

Happy Birthday Lindsay

More pics!

Thank you to Grace and Allyson for a few more!  There could never be enough.   If anyone else has any, send my way!  Or to Billie and John and Brandon!

Happy birthday to the most beautiful girl.

Linds-

Happy birthday.    Like the years past and for every year to come, I will use this day to celebrate so much. All that was amazing about you, my good fortune in having your memory so intertwined with my own, and the innumerable things you taught me about fortitude, character, friendship, love, and generosity through your life, however short.   June 8th will always be one of my favorite days due to the richness of you.

In one of the voicemails I have from you, left on my birthday, you said it best.  "There is just so much that I want to say."  On our less articulate days, we had a habit of letting SomeEcards do the talking.  So today will be no different.  You would hate this amount of attention, but please know, that I think the world needs a little reminding today of how beautiful you are and how your beauty lives on through the people you surrounded yourself with.

Lots of love to all of LARs followers.  Please enjoy these pictures pulled from an enormous archive I have and have always wanted to share.  The SomeEcards were all pulled directly from my Inbox.  Gifts from Lindsay, so generous she was.   Cheers to you Linds.

Happy Birthday Linds!!

Linds,

Happy Birthday!! I wrote a super sad/sappy/emotional letter to you earlier this week but decided not to post it, because it’s your birthday and today is a day of happiness and celebration. I will not be sad.

Instead, for your birthday, I’m giving myself a gift.  And that gift is to chill out.  You and I both know that I have a slight problem with this concept and the past three months have been even rougher than my usual.  But, for you, I’m willing to compromise. Starting today, life comes first – I will not let grades or scores control my life and I will put happiness first.  In the next year, I vow to take more trips, read more (for fun), tell my friends and family that I love them every day, and definitely do a lot more dancing.  When I need perspective, I often watch this little man and think about how much you would love him (I know I do): https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=l-gQLqv9f4o

Anyways, I’ve got a kind of big test coming up in a couple of days and I know you’re with me, so I'm going to stop with the stress.  I’m taking my last practice test after I post this and, if it doesn’t go well, I’m wearing a super cute dress (for your birthday, of course) so maybe I’ll just go pick up a Neurosurgeon and call it a day.  After this is all over, maybe I’ll throw on some of my crazy neon Supré cloths from Australia and try to recreate one of our ridiculous nights out, though it could never be the same without you.

I love you so so much and I wish that we could go out tonight and play Dare Versus Dare, have a dance-off in the pouring rain, or eat a mountain of Tim Tams together.

Love you always and forever,

Lauren

P.S. I've tried to find pictures that I haven't already given to your parents, and I think that this might be it, but I've got a whole album of just you that I like to keep around... Somehow this set just highlights how you could pull off the American Apparel t-shirt + accessories look and still look more glamorous than everyone else combined.

happy birthday linds.

on days like today, I miss you a little more than usual. let's be honest, I miss you every single day. my life is not the same without you in it. on days like today, it helps to think back on all the happy times...

the beginning- 6th grade blossom. you and I went on a blossom double date with Ben I and Damon B. somehow we were talked into kissing a frog for a prize. this would mark the first of many new things we would try together. the rest is history- many more blossoms, parties at your house, an arrest, LAX seasons, football games, high school dances, college visits, a european adventure, canadian road trips, NYEs, xmas gift exchanges, concerts... there isn't much we didn't do together. as we begin to celebrate the first bitch marriage, its hard not to feel like something or more appropriately, someone is missing. I can only imagine what kind of antics you would come up with for the bachelorette party. I'll try to incorporate a "Lindsay idea" in the festivities. I hope you approve.

this is another one of my favorites- another adventure together, our first rave concert. of course, you took charge of the outfits and accessories. only you knew what would be appropriate, as you did for many occasions. I still find myself picking out things you would love- like an awesome necklace or a bright accessory. I think about you when I wear heels; if Lindsay could do it, I can do it. like Em said at the funeral, you taught us all so much; I hope we are making you proud.

one more for good measure. I am so thankful for having you in my life for as long as I did, but I still miss you every single day. not sure how they celebrate birthdays up there, but I am sure yours will be one to remember. LYMY always.

xoxo,
C

p.s. give Papa a hug for me!
p.p.s. I hope Rascal and Chip are friends up there!